I really get this. I had very few male friendships while I was worried because I’d pretty much removed them from my life because I knew I’d have the temptation to cheat if I kept them close. When I got separated and then divorced, I developed several close friendships, but they all ended up dissolving over time. One had never made any kind of sexual move on me whatsoever, and when we went out of town together for an event shortly after I started dating my now husband, he suddenly asked me if I wanted to make out even though he also had a girlfriend. That relationship ended after that. Today, I keep men at arms’ length. There are some I chat with casually, but no hang-outs. It’s hard to find real female friendships, but it’s possible.